This is a difficult post to make, so please bear with me…
A year ago, I had a sudden onset of facial numbness and spasms and ended up spending my birthday in the ER. It was the beginning of health issues that are still ongoing. No one seemed to know what the problem was, and eventually the muscle spasms eased up (After 8 months) but I was left with permanent nerve damage around my right eye/brow. It was during this time that I noticed my hearing was deteriorating, and I have made FB updates on that issue over the past few months.
What I haven’t mentioned was a rather frightening blood test result that I received about six months ago. These results showed an elevated level of something or other that indicated the possible presence of a brain tumour. I made the decision to not tell Sam (My partner) and to not have the MRI. I admit, I wanted to pretend it away and if it was something nasty, then I didn’t want to know about it.
Tonight I went to the doctor in regards to getting forms signed for the reimbursement of hearing aids. My doctor had a talk to me and explained that hearing loss is also a symptom of a brain tumour. That he can’t force me to have the MRI, but it’s strongly advised. So tonight I confessed everything I’ve been hiding to Sam. Naturally he’s shell-shocked. The good news is – and yes there is finally a bit of good news – the tumour they’re looking for is non-aggressive with a high cure rate. If that’s what I have, then it would need to be removed and the chances of it recurring are very slim.
The reason I’m confessing this now is because I am aware I’ve been distant, I’ve not been focused on my writing, haven’t been posting many new cover art designs, and I wanted to let people know the reason why. I promised I would be at GRL this year and, if everything is clear with the tests, then I will still try and keep that promise. At the moment I’m struggling a bit with depression, stress, and anxiety. I’m having good days and I’m having terrible days. Please be patient with me and as soon as I know more, I’ll keep people informed.